cold

It describes so much right now. So, so very much.

First of all, it's cold in this house. This house that I am taking up residence in for another 4 weeks. It really isn't that bad here. I can come and go as I want, my parents aren't being unreasonable... in fact, right about now, no one has been here for the past 8 hours... but in all reality, that sucks.

Yeah, I am having withdrawl from people. I wasn going to go to Charleston with Kate and Deni, but I came home because my dad went to the hospital last night. It's ok, he's fine. But a HUGE thanks to Kate and Deni for being so understanding and to Kelly and Robbie for driving me back. Kate truly is my best friend, and Kelly and Robbie are honestly some of the most humble, giving, and compassionate brothers in my fraternity. I am so grateful.

Anyway, I haven't done anything fun AT ALL since I have been back. I am really starting to get depressed. I can feel dementors honing in on this house... "like, I'll never be happy again!" And you know what? I really don't know if I will. I don't know anyone here in this big city besides Kate and Deni. Everyone else is so much older... so much more grown... so much more settled. It doesn't matter that I am a college grad with a house and a job... everyone is still more grown.

How does a person like me, who loves life and loves being active and being around people settle into such a grown up city and develop a grown-up frame of mind. No matter how hard I try, I can't find fun in staying at home by myself watching TV. I just can't. I have to be out... somewhere. Things can't be NORMAL for me. Even in my classroom, things are going to have to be different... against the flow of things. Expect lots of music and dancing and singing... you can't learn, much less LIVE without movement and music.

I just don't get it. Right now, I'm sitting in this cold house with nothing to do... no one really to call on to do anything... nothing to do but write.

...and now I'm done.

Boo for this.