singing sad love songs

Hello, blog. What's up? You are the only one around right now, so I guess I'll talk to you. Karen is around too... she's in the same state that I'm in kinda... home alone. I'm talking to her online. I hope she doesn't think that I'm ignoring her. I'm in one of my moods. The pensive sad song listening mood. I've been in this mood before. You know... Kinda like last night... I'm a little hung up on the r-word. So, I'm sitting here, thinking... reflecting... wondering if I should go out and do something tonight... or take some Ham time. Karen asked to hang out... which would be fun... but I'm being reflective right now. So... that's that.

Last Friday, Jess Hall, Nick, Patrick, and I were riding to Bi-Lo in the car and listening to Clay Aiken. I don't like him that much... well, I DIDN'T like him that much. I like him now. That night, Jess introduced me to a song that is nothing short of the story of my life. It's called Solitaire:

there was a man
a lonely man
who lost his love
through his indifference

a heart that cared
that went unshared
until it died
in his silence

and solitaire’s the only game in town
every road that takes him takes him down
and by himself it’s easy to pretend
he’ll never love again

and keeping to himself he plays the game
without her love it always ends the same
while life goes on around him everywhere
he’s playing solitaire

another day
a lonely day
so much to say
that goes unspoken

and through the night
his sleepless nights
his eyes are closed
his heart is broken

and solitaire’s the only game in town
every road that takes him takes him down
and by himself it’s easy to pretend
she’s coming back again

and keeping to himself he plays the game
without her love it always ends the same
while life goes on around him everywhere
he’s playing solitaire

a little home
goes up in smoke
just how it goes
goes without saying

solitaire

and by himself it’s easy to pretend
he’ll never love again
oooohh – keeping to himself he plays the game
without her love it always ends the same
while life goes on around him everywhere
he’s playing solitaire

solitaire
solitaire

I love it. It is my new favorite song. I mean, it's the theme song of the moment. I'm playing solitaire right now... I gotta restart my computer... so much for the sad music... It's gotta be put on hold. I'll let you know what happens later tonight. Hopefully something worthwhile.