written at chapter...

"This should be an interesting entry... well, I'm in chapter... or some loose type of something that may resemble chapter. What is this? What the hell is this? First of all... well, no. I'm not ready to start. I'll go backwards. Right now, as of this very moment, we are talking AGAIN about the whole election fiasco. STILL! What the FUCK? I don't care. In all honesty, I wish I wasn't sitting here right now. I wish I could be typing something marshmallows and sunshine into my computer directly right now. I'm not serving any purpose here. I'm sitting here angry (about which I will address shortly) and I am not contributing anything to this conversation. I mean... In all seriousness, this is turning normal band people--would be friends--into enemies. People are upset, untrusting, and just plain old insulting! I feel like KB is ruinging friendships instead of promoting brotherhood. I have so much disdain in my heart right now. I NEVER EVER want to quit KKPsi. There are people out there on the internet reading this who don't know what the Greek letters Kappa, Kappa, and Psi mean. But I swear on everything I believe in and hold dear to my heart--I love what KKPsi stands for and I love what this fraternity means. But tonight, the thought of leaving the chapter when the semester ends and not returning in August crossed my mind. This election shit has been worse than that Florida mess back in 2000. Honestly, it shouldn't be. The status of the United States government should be more pressing to me thatn who counts the votes and who publishes the votes in Kappa Beta. Why is this so emotionally charging? Why do I stay in this? Why did I devote 12 weeks of my life to this? I know why. I believe that KKPsi. No, that sentence is not grammatically incorrect. I believe that KKPsi. It does. This shit is over... for now. I'll write more later tonight, I'm sure."

Well, that was during a big discussion... they started talking about stuff that was kinda over my head and I knew that I wasn't going to be able to contribute anything, and besides, I was a little hot about what happened earlier during chapter. But, I cooled down... especially when Dr. Spede said what he had to say... regarding e-mail wars:

"If it goes on for more than one paragraph, stop writing and pick up the phone."

And about the whole Robert's Rules, "dimpled chads," vote mess, he said:

"Democracy worked."

Two very true statements. I REALLY respect Dr. Spede. His few little words did a lot for me tonight. Thank God we had a teacher in the room to tie it all together and tell us that the whole thing was a life lesson. It was... and is. I charge none of this to the fraternity that is Kappa Kappa Psi. Neither do I charge it to the Kappa Beta chapter. I charge this to life. We live and we learn. And the important fact, is that we walk away more intelligent and enlightened individuals.

KKPsi... still holds true.