calls #3 and #4

I got call number 3 on Friday night. I was in a hurry to get over to Hoke's to party a little bit to pay too much attention to it... And, at 2:16 am, I just got off the phone from call number 4. This one was intense... This theme of this call was "the inner workings of Hamilton's mind." Well, I found out that there is attraction from the other side of the phone now... so that is exciting. I'm surprised I'm not more excited... So yeah, this person likes me... but I think now that they have seen the inner workings of my mind, I'm a nut case. I tried to say that I had feelings for this person... and somehow, my mind stopped working... Like it is starting to shut down now... I wasn't saying the right things... but then the calming and wonderful voice from the other end of the phone said, "Don't worry about the details..."

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I'm so confused... but I was told not to think about it so much... but thinking is what the two of us had in common... There was awkward silence on the phone a lot tonight... when each of us asked why the other wasn't talking... it was because we were thinking... It's what I like so much about this person! Our intellects are something incredbile! The conversation is mind boggling. It's like sex with words! It's intense and rich and thought provoking conversation... it's GOOD! It's not bad that I feel this way! If anything, I feel inferior becasue my mind is not as intense as this persons... BUT THAT'S OKAY! They told me, "Say what you feel... Don't worry about the details..." It's okay... and they like me:

"I know if I had come back over that night after my exam, I would have regretted it." Our friendship right now is based solely on conversation... and it is good that way. I don't think I have even touched this person's hand... there is nothing physical as of right now (except for the fact that we saw each other that Wednesday about a month ago). And I said, "I want to get to know you better." And they said, "Fair enough."

But now, I won't wait in anticipation of the next call... but get my thoughts together for that next intense conversation... and in the mean time... not "worry about the details."