i told... part ii

I told again... but no... no more anonymities... a hella amount of people know now... including the crush. Yeah... THAT is who I told. Like Nelly Furtado kept telling me to "say what you want," I really did it. After tons of prodding and poking by Jeff and Anonymity #1 (surprise... it was Nick). So... I was drunk... unfortunately... or not unfortunately... I haven't figured out whether or not that was a good thing. Anyway, in being drunk, I don't remember much of what I said. I do know that I quoted a few song lyrics... "Please Forgive Me" to be exact... The crush was on the sofa laying down and I was kneeling on the floor. It was a good situation... And I am glad that it happened.

I also found out that the day I wrote about the cock blocker was the day the crush found out. So, All day yesterday and all day Thursday, the crush knew... and nothing changed in our day to day interactions... as nothing changed after I spilled my drunken guts.

I passed out shortly after I came clean to the crush... actually, my last memory of last night was talking to the crush. I woke up this morning and we hung out and talked... like nothing had really changed. And THAT makes me INCREDIBLY happy.

So, maybe you are wondering what comes next... well, either we didn't come to a conclusion, or we did and I was too drunk to remember... but, to me... it doesn't matter much. What does matter is that I don't have to keep worrying about what if's and freaking out about the reaction and all that... I may not have a significant other... but I have an incredibly awesome friend.

THE CRUSH Miniseries
CREDITS...

Blogger
Hamilton

Anonymity #1
Nick

Anonymity #2
Tex

The Crush
The Crush

Music:
"Please Forgive Me"
David Gray

"The Luckiest"
Ben Folds

"Toxic"
Britney Spears

"White Flag"
Dido

"Always"
Atlantic Star

"Powerless"
Nelly Furtado

Soundtrack on King Congruence Records

Special Thanks to my Confidants:
Tarik
Jenee
Erin
Jeff
Kate
Betsy
Missy