toxic

Never would I have imagined that Britney Spears and I would be on the same wavelength. But, hark... we are.

So, I didn't get to "say what I want"ed today... but, I prepared for it. I made sure I was dressed nicely and psyched myself up... but I never got the chance to. The HORRIBLE fact of the matter is (and I am about to sink into a not so good mood, so this might get cut short), I was immersed in the presence of the crush for a L O N G time... but due to a certain "cock blocker," as they are called, I pretty much ceased to exist.

So, should I go against what Dido says? Should I jump ship before it goes down? Should I put my hands up and surrender? Should I put a white flag above my door? I really don't know.

All I do know is that I really am powerless. Everytime I am around the crush, I want to say what I want... but it feels like lightning running through my veins everytime I look at the crush. Seriously. I told Tarik tonight that I honestly can't stand being around the crush... talk about toxic... I really like this person... why do I not want to be around them at all?